I took a weekend trip with my wife recently, a rare opportunity for the two of us to get away by ourselves, stay in a hotel and relax a bit, and do something fun. It was a good trip overall, but it made me realize that there are just some places whose energy I just don’t like.
I won’t go into where we were, as I don’t want to offend those who live there, but it left me feeling a little bit edgy and defensive until I pinpointed what I was feeling and did what I could to push back. I’ve never been very open to the energies around me. I’m pretty much the opposite of an empath, with my defenses up all the time. It’s not something I set out to do or learn, just a natural defensive mechanism I developed long ago. But recently I’ve been working to open up more.
And then I immersed myself in a context just saturated with bad energy. I felt uncomfortable and irritable, but not for any defined reason. There were things I could justifiably be mildly annoyed by, but my discomfort was disproportionate to the situation. It was mid-afternoon that Saturday before it dawned on me that I was experiencing the whole trip differently because I’d been working to be more open, and whatever was going on energy-wise in that place just didn’t feel good.
So I made some adjustments and managed to salvage a bit of a better mood. It wasn’t until later that I realized that it wasn’t the energy I was feeling so acutely, but my vulnerability to it. In other words, I was irritable because I was feeling a need to defend myself and distance myself from the environment. I didn’t like how I felt without my shields completely up, having to interact with the unpleasant energy. I was edgy because I was feeling invaded, in a way, and I didn’t want anything else encroaching on my territory, so to speak. Much like if you go out in public wearing something more revealing than you’re accustomed to, and become hyper-aware of people who might be looking at you differently. I was hyper-aware of a sort of oppressive, competitive fakeness all around me. And I don’t think it was just the people gathered at the event we attended – it was the whole culture of the place.
Are there places you find unpleasant and negative?